Whatever sadness and depression that have been surrounding me
Only reminded myself about how emotionally incapable I am
While I am writing this, is only proving it more-
About how I am so aware about this handicap all the time
I kept thinking
If I were to love myself more
And is a little bit more capable
Maybe all these sadness would have been voided
And I would handle all these depression and disappointment better
But I can only
Dwell in it
Feeling insecured
Blaming myself and deciding its my fault and incapability for whatever happened
I can't help
I just feel so small and unworthy
Some said self awareness is good
While I just hope I could feel less
And care less
